tuesday post…
…is getting more frequent eh? well…the day has been very….painful. you know what’s the thing about life? when you feel ecstatic, it would seem like you’re the happiest person in the world but the truth is, there will always be someone who’s happier than you, luckier than you, better off than you. and when you feel like everything is working against you, you’d curse your luck for being the world’s most suffering person when in truth, there’s always someone worse off. ahhh..the highs and lows of life.
well..today was bad. like those bad dreams you don’t ever want repeated. not bad like feel like sticking a pen through my thighs but bad enough to make my head go dizzy and spinning like a disco record. literally. hah. funny thing is, i had the feeling it would be an off day in the morning on the train to work. but i was looking forward to the evening, therefore absolutely disregarding my bad instincts. sure enough, i was wrong to do so. dumb dumb. i’m like the weatherman who looks forward to the picnic in the sun when the prediction says that it would be a rainy day. i’m quite good with metaphors, aren’t i? or so i like to think. haha
strange day, this. sigh..i shall not elaborate on the details for they are best forgotten. however, i’ve got 2 things to say. firstly, that this blog is jinxed. cos whenever i put a post or 2 that has happy contents, i’ll face some kinda ‘bad fortune’. maybe that’s why i tend to blog less in times of happiness. so if you’re looking for ‘happy, happy, joy, joy’ kinda posts, this ain’t the place for you, haha
secondly, on the way back on the train, i got to thinking and rewinded my day in my mind. i dreaded the day. all the way. my head spinning. my back aching more than it ever has before(how many times have i said this before? are you keeping count? haha). and all that. so i came upon the realisation that this is just how life is in general. you love the days when they’re filled with happiness. you wish those days would never end. yet you could not underestimate the importance of the rainy days. if you don’t taste the bitter, you may not appreciate tasting the sweet. that said, let’s hope there would be much much much much more sweet than bitter. i’m not usually one to be ungrateful anyway. 
and just to finish it all off, 2007 has so far provided more bitterness than sweet. i suppose it’s not personally a great way to start off the year but i generally do better overall when i start bad. so…attempting to keep a positive outlook on the next 347 days, i shall be determined to make this year a good one.
