today is a saturday…

…that i had originally set aside to do some shopping. retail therapy. felt like spending some of the money that i had saved all this while. and i had planned this for a couple of weeks now. to allow myself some retail therapy. but when i woke up this morning, and a few hours passed, i did my laundry, then i decided urgh…i don’t know what i wanna buy. and i rather save my money. crap. hahaha

i think this saver side of me is down to my father. even since i was young, my dad was always the one who saved the cash. he doesn’t spend much on himself. and all his money went to buying things for my mom and for the family. i guess my dad’s the saver, and my mom the spender. so i guess since young, i had a perception that the male should save for the female to spend. and i haven’t been able to shake loose of that idea. haha

i think i’m a conservative kind of man. also maybe the more egoistic kinda man. i wanna be the one supporting the other. the one paying the bills. the one in charge. i mean…yes…the world has changed. and the roles of the male and female has evolved greatly through the years, but i guess the sentimental side of me feels that there are some things that the male should do, and some the female should do. and these things should remain that way, even if yes, we should judge each individual and case separately. so i guess what i’m saying is that the one who should be worrying about bringing the bread home should be the male, hence the need to maybe have a good balance of taking some risks in investments and saving a good amount.

and i suppose this is why i decided not to go shopping today. even if i was just waiting for an opportunity to splash unnecessary cash to ‘pamper’ myself. hahaha many friends of mine say ‘what’s the use of saving? you gotta enjoy your life.’ yeah you’re right. you gotta enjoy your life. but that’s not to say there’s no use in saving up for the rainy days. i like insurance. i like having a back up plan. so i guess again, the key word here is balance. a balance between spending the money you deserve to make yourself happy, and saving the money you should to prepare for any unforeseen ’shocks’. conclusion? instead of shopping, i’m typing away right here. hahaha that’s another lonely saturday for you. sigh…

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