thursday night…
…thursday night and i can’t hold back my tears. fact is…i’ve gone through about half a year hating myself for putting myself in ‘that’ position again. i hate myself for putting me through all that once more. what is going on? life ain’t fair. i learnt that since i was 3. my sister gets everything. i don’t. i work for everything. learning morals, learning courtesy, learning life. ahhhh….life
actually, i’m not in ‘that’ position ‘again’. i’ve never been in this position before. still learning about life eh? end of year…this is meant to be joyful times. why is it not? why does everything i look forward to falls apart so damn often? you know what the best part is? i was so not looking forward to today this morning, plus all the annoying people in the mrt train, and hating my life and every aspect of it, i thought of killing myself and taking everyone in the whole train along with me. yup. me. ching szuen. thought of killing everyone and myself. hah. i guess people change huh? i just wonder if the police will put me to jail if they read this. hahaha life…
ey! happiness! where are you??? i haven’t seen you in years! come backkkkkkkk!! sigh….
