nooo december…
…urghhhh! 
well..in my previous post i said i was keeping fingers crossed about the coming weekend. and then this morning, i received news that crushed it. URGHHHHHHHHHH!!! i had made plans, did everything i needed to do, and yet it all came undone. so…plans crushed. me crushed. URGHHHHHHHHHHH!!! and if i say ‘urgh’ too many times…it’s cos i’ve been feeling URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH all day long.
anyway…i played football today. was a good session. ran a lot again. but on 1 attack, i dribbled to the edge then put a cross in, and i fell and hit my knee against a steel bar. it didn’t hurt so much earlier. it didn’t hurt when i got back. but now it’s freaking swolen and hurting so much. hahaha i think the adrenalin got me through earlier but now that i’ve settled down…OUCHHHHHH! could barely walk. football today was so-so. tried to be too fancy. so didn’t get to score too many. good fun anyway. may become a weekly thing from now on in my effort to lose weight. things have been said to me. hahaha
nothing much to say about today cos i was given that URGH news in the morning and it sorta stuck in my mind all day long. URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! oh wait. there’s 1 thing i remembered. on my way back from football, my colleague was talking to his friend in the car about holiday places and…well…sex. this colleague had only just came back from bangkok so the main topic was bangkok. and how you can have loads and loads of sex there. i wonder if he was speaking from personal experience. but his friend was. telling us stories of how he used to go there and just get laid again and again. even after he was married, me thinks.
and then i wondered, is it all really about just sex? i mean..ok you guys will be going ?!?!?! cos you think i’m such a pervert. but really…is that the only goal of being with a lady then? to get laid? so often men talk about it and i know it sounds absurd but i can’t link myself to it. sure, it is something that i would enjoy. my theory is that everyone enjoys it anyway. but…i don’t know. i guess i am just a little bit bewildered because this…this is what society does. men must drink a lot. men must get laid a lot. women just raising the kid and waiting for the men to get home. women must be obedient. i don’t know if the motivation behind doing these things are from enjoying these things, or merely from peer pressure. well…society eh? absolutely disgusted by it. lastly…URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. what horrible news for today…sigh…
