Ching Szuen

…here at singapore. already i’m here typing away. i guess it’s cos i’ve felt weird or stupid or whatever the past week or so and i haven’t got anyone to talk to nor anywhere to rant or crap so i jump right on here. even the previous post was rushed cos i was actually in office and colleague was trying to make me feel guilty for ‘using the company internet for personal purposes’. funny guy.

and i just found out i may have messed up at work today. long story, will try telling next time cos am feeling real tired but dear god, stop toying with me! arghhhh! am going back to kl this weekend. hmmm…i wonder if we’ll meet up or not.

…and it’s 7:06pm. today’s been such a long day. was at client’s for whole day. and now back at office. feels weird entering the office at 7. anyway, first time i’m posting since i’ve been in singapore.

i’ve no idea why sometimes i type a text msg. and i don’t know whether or not i should send it. and i would already have finished typing the text, and put the number in, but just stare at the text blankly wondering whether i should or not. yes or no. that’s cos i just think if i may be saying the wrong things, or the inappropriate things. or maybe that i’m just being stupid and should keep my mouth shut cos i’ve lost count how many times my mouth has blew the ground beneath me and drown me right in. but the weird thing is, right at the same time, i just wanna say what i wanna say.

and then sometimes i just save it in the draft, maybe i’ll feel like sending it later. and other times i just press the button and off it goes. and then i would wonder whether i did the right thing sending it through. last night i did that. and i sent it. and i’m still wondering if it was the right thing to do sending that text. arghhhhh…my stupid mouth. i better not have said anything wrong again. hmmm…