as i sit down here…
…on april fool’s day of 2006, i ponder to think of what my life has been, and how it has developed into somewhat of a joke. i will be leaving shortly to singapore to begin a whole new journey, to start afresh. the past week or so, as i met up with loads of friends, many have asked what are your feelings towards working in singapore and spending your life there. i can only shrug to that. i don’t know what i feel. i don’t know if i look forward to it excitedly, or feel dampen by the prospect of leaving what i have here in kl behind. but today, the last couple of hours before i leave, i realise my heart is pretty heavy. maybe because i feel like i have some unfinished business. i don’t know.
i also realise today that while many have come to wish me well on this trip, some others have also decided to enter or leave my life as and when they wish. it is difficult when people just come in when they feel like it, get whatever they feel like, and leave whenever they feel like it. i wish some people didn’t have to leave the way they did. but i guess i have to accept their decisions. either way, it’s been a long and winding journey. i’ve got a long way to go some more and i hope perhaps along the way, i would be able to cross paths with those who have left without saying goodbye. maybe a goodbye is what i need to have some closure. just maybe..
p/s thanks to those who’ve stuck around. it hasn’t always been a bed of roses but great nevertheless.
