ahhh…
…after so long, i’m on my own computer again. i suppose having my computer from manchester back here goes in line with the issues i faced there. fate, i think, is a very odd thing. it puts 2 people in a situation to get to know one another, learn about one another, be in the company of one another. without fate, i wouldn’t get to know each and everyone one of you out there. without fate, i wouldn’t have met people i cherish so much. without fate, you and i will not be in touch right here, right now anymore. but at the same time, without fate causing me to appreciate certain people a lot, it wouldn’t hurt me nearly as much as it does now to try leave certain people behind.
i am a sentimental man. moments that had embraced my life means ever more to me. the memories i share with every person keeps me going because i know we went through the good and bad times together. the laughter and tears i experience with you mean more than you think. they make me realise i have a friend in you. they make me realise i can count on you. they make me realise life is beautiful. these dearest times i’ve shared with the people i care most will never be forgotten.
today i made a choice to try my best to leave someone so close to my heart behind. i hope it will only be temporary but it is without doubt the most painful thing i’ve ever tried to do. it’s barely been a day and i already hate it. i don’t want to do this. but it seems i may have to do this for the good of yours. i have never lied to you. i have no reason to.
