Ching Szuen

…realise that everyone i know have gone through such huge changes and it’s almost like watching an evolution happening right before me. it’s crazy how some of the friends i have and still keep in touch with were from primary school, high school, college and all the way up to university. i have seen these ppl grow up and become such wonderful people with such diverse qualities and changes taking place in their lives. it fills me with great joy to be standing here(or sitting rather) seeing these pictures, reading about their lives, and witnessing the growth of my very best friends. i feel so happy for so many of you out there, be it having your own careers, or finding love, or merely being around supporting one another along the way, in every way. it’s great to know i am still able to speak to so many friends as if we’d never parted, as if we’re still sitting next to each other in class, as if we spend so much time together learning about the world and each other. i probably don’t say this enough and i probably whine a tad too much but thanks all you guys all around the world, every one of you for having been a part of my life for without you, i would not be the person i am today. of course whether the person i am today is good or not is another point altogether. hahahaha in any case, i think i should just take a little time out to highlight i am in awe as to how much each of us have gone through and made it this far. i hope in another 10 years, i’ll still be talking to each of you like the way i do today. lastly, stay in school and out of drugs. don’t be a pervert. don’t be shy. ciao babes..

alright, another colour for the blog cos now i’m using my sis’ bf’s computer in london. so blue for my computer, red for my sis’ old computer, and now green for my sis’ bf’s computer. good job. i’m damn organised. i must put that in my cv. anyway, miss kimmie was our dearest econs lecturer in A levels back in HELP Institute and yes miss kimmie, it’s been 3 years and i’m officially an econs graduate now. well..sort of. haha let’s leave out the complications and details of what’s going on but instead focus on how to help me with my interview. so i’ve got an interview with the UK Government Economic Service on 26th July and they’re gonna test me on macro, micro, and their applications in the real world. so, any suggestions? don’t be shy. just gimme suggestions. they also want me to talk about myself. so what do i say? i think these questions are primarily targeted at miss kimmie so let’s help me to help you make the world a better place! i don’t know how that works but it just sounds nice. =D

anyway, for those who are wondering, i’m now in london. just came from manchester. and before that i was in barcelona, salamanca, toledo and madrid. so yeah. in the past 11 days, i was in all these places. convo was good, took lotsa pics. once again thanks to all the friends who were there. and also those who weren’t but have been such great support. you’ve been great. perverted maybe. but great. and finally, although my path from here on is filled with enormous uncertainty, i feel quite enthusiastic and excited about the prospects of the future and i look forward to the challenges that lie ahead. i hope you guys feel the same. and to the terrorists who attacked london, screw you and i hope you burn in hell for eternity. i am in london and we will stand here in defiance. we are not afraid. oh i didn’t notice i said finally already. hahaha so anyway…lastly…hahahha…hope to keep in touch with everyone. some of you have been so perverted that you’ve made me pull my hair out at times, but we shall look past that and stand together and build nuclear weapons to counter-attack terrorists. good job. cheers mate..

…and it feels strange. i may be attending the convocation on wednesday, but i’ll still have 2 exams to sit for in august. somehow this doesn’t look like it’s gonna be how i always dreamed it would be. being proud and happy i’ve gone through every step in education bar masters. being proud i last the full 3 years weathering storm after storm and again. it’s difficult to express how i feel. i am satisfied how i’ve handled with many things, not so with some others. i am happy to announce the end of my torture here, yet sad that some of the happiest memories will end. this place gives me the most ambivalent feelings. i’ve met some wonderful people, and some i’d prefer to forget. haha….seems fitting the song playing on my windows media player now is ‘be as you were when we met’…a slow lovely instrumental piece. perhaps what the song is asking for is for times when people are simpler, when they’re pure. just like how i wish it should be. hmm..i think at the end of the day, i will miss this place so much. for the things that i’ve gone through, for the people i’ll miss, for the things we do, for the life that we enjoy. i’ve worked hard. i’ve played even harder. i think it’s fair to say it’s been good. this road i picked. this journey i’ve walked. i wish i could stay a little longer to do the things i should have done a long time ago. well, this is just such a strange feeling. i’m lost for words…